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2010-01-10T23:30:00.001+08:00

MOVED.not seeing this place again. http://i-is-a-purple-tree.blogspot.com/

2009-10-26T21:11:00.001+08:00

should i get livejournal or wordpress?
sad that this blog won't be hitting 20 posts. pathetic.

2009-10-24T22:51:00.004+08:00

to say that i'm disappointed would be a obscene understatement. you know, i never really understood why i forgave you the first time round, or even not to put up barricades against you. do you seriously think you're a psychologist, fit to pass of your own conclusions as fact? or some sort of United Nations peacekeeper? come on. UN is just shit.

to be brutally honest, i really don't see what *she* saw in you. other than your 'humour', which are often just built on tasteless personal attacks. you may criticise me but you don't realise that you're no better. i can just ignore this, which i will, but you're never hearing a word about my private life again. and don't think of getting involved in my problems. you're offering help? no thanks. filthy hypocrite.

2009-09-03T20:19:00.002+08:00

you said you cried over it
you said you had problems not thinking about it when you study
you accuse me of not wearing your shoes
yet how am i supposed to know all these if you hadn't come clean today?
you asked me if i had anything to say back to you
i said no
but deep down i have alot to say
so many things that i just can't put into words over the phone
my hands are trembling for no reason
i lost my appetite
now i'm sick with worry. literally
how is it possible that you can suffer more than me?
think about it
yes i know i've been abit selfish
never mind
odds are you won't be reading this anyway

2009-08-17T22:00:00.003+08:00

do you ever wonder what do your friends see and think of you when they arrive at your blog?

to investigate this, i came to my blog. which is here. upon arriving at this page,

i see a drawing that i would be proud of, given my obscene drawing abilities.
i see my tagboard, rather dead compared to its heydays, which isn't my fault, everyone's so busy nowadays.
i see whinings about my life.
i see less than 10 postings.
i see a ridiculous number of links.
all of which doesn't add up to the impression i would like?

okay, so i went to my old blog, which, incidentally, is still there, and should have more interesting stuff. not very true though.

okay okay this post sucks, and worsens the quality of my blog, which, is just about as likely as me getting straight As. i'm bored. so there.

moving on.

2009-08-14T22:12:00.003+08:00

okay. so my CT results aren't that great after all, compared to others.
worryingly, 52% of physics students got A and i barely got a C. i passed maths and chem by a razor thin margin, and my econs and gp fell like crap. i seriously doubt i can even achieve the 'simple' target of AABB/A.

perhaps i should just quit whining and get on with the mugging. but it isn't easy to mug when half the questions you do are done by guessing and there seems to be no improvement after 13 hours of mugging. i should really SMASH my head against the wall for getting too involved in relationship stuff for the past 1.5 years.

maybe i have too much on my mind. like wondering to quit my chemistry tuition since it's becoming more of a chore every week. then again, i can just try keeping a cool head every time tuition comes around, no?

maybe it isn't so bad after all.

2009-07-21T20:35:00.005+08:00

been addicted to this song for the past 2 days, nearly went crazy with it constantly playing in my mind during lessons.

the lyrics are so nice! maybe it's because i can really relate to it? there's so many lins that i really like but there's just one line that i feel strongly about : "Just like we used to, just like we used to"

you know how sometimes you have a good friend with whom you will do all sorts of silly things together, create dumb inside jokes and when both of you go your separate ways (like going to different schools) he/she just becomes a stranger, just another face in your memory?

2 weeks ago, my p5 classmate posted our class photo on facebook, and it was only then that i realised how much i've fallen out of touch with my primary schoolmates. it's the same with my secondary sch ppl, ppl like andy growing more hair than ever, lol.

is it really all going to happen again this year? when we leave vj and can only look back on things we used to do? i mean, yeah it's happened already this year even before graduation and it's really painful, especially when the other party's so special but doesn't give two hoots about the relationship. bah, whatever.

2009-07-16T21:18:00.001+08:00

OHHHHHHMAAAAIIIIGAAAAWWWDDDD

2009-07-14T22:12:00.003+08:00

econs lecture today was, well, wierd. i spent more time thinking about other things than the consequences of the exchange rate policy. things like,

1. my inability to spend time with another person alone, like one on one, especially with a girl, in this case my viviana. not that i'm socially inept (or maybe i am?), but it's just that there are some people that i can't get used to being with alone, and there will always be something like a prolonged awkward silence. unless there's someone else around to be a catalyst, lowering the activation energy so i can really be myself (okay i'm starting to crap). it's not the other person's fault, it's mine, and i hate it.

it didn't help that the lecturer kept ordrering us to talk in pairs about deflation and how we last failed to ask a boy/girl out on a date. which brings me to my next more depressing point----

2. while trying to come up with something to talk about other than my most recent failed attempt to ask a girl out on a date (which isn't very long ago), hanyi asked me about jellybean and how she haven't heard about us for a long time. it was only then that i remembered that hanyi was one of those who knew, and that i realised just how much have changed since those days where the class was flooded with jelly, jellybean, grass jelly etc etc. it really is quite incredible that within half a year, from february till now, we have gone through so much fun together, and also sadness and frustration. i don't know how is it you can simply chuck all those aside and how we can end up in this state.

right. enough emo-ing. time to act happy =)

i'm still waiting for your move.

2009-07-13T22:16:00.002+08:00

gosh, i feel that i really owe alot of people some apologies because of how sian i've been in the past 3 weeks. if anyone reads this at all and i've been really unresponsive to you, i'm really sorry because i guess for the past few weeks i simply don't have the interest to socialise? very sorry again.

篮球火's ending soon! :( by wed i'll have nothing to watch at all because 涼宮ハルヒの憂鬱 has also ended! although this means i'll have more time to study, i'll probably just find some other lame show to watch.

which isn't good.

not at all.

yes i'm still waiting for you to fufill your promise.

2009-06-03T22:43:00.002+08:00

yours truly is back in business!

well, i have no idea what drove me back to this page, but the highest suspicion is the sheer boredom of the holidays, which has the occasional bad habit of driving people up the wall.

finally, i can take a respite from everything tmr, where i will go to melaka and try to lead 3 surreal days from a stranger's life. i won't even bring my phone i think. defeats the purpose of trying to forget everything when i just have to flick on my phone and see grisly reminders, right? and to think my dad told me to pack some notes to mug there. hur hur.

over the past week, i realised that my wardrobe is severely inadequately equipped for the holiday season. was forced to wear a pair of jeans down to PP when it's sweltering. gotta reinforce my wardrobe! =D

i should kick myself for wasting that golden opportunity yesterday, really, what was i thinking?

2009-03-12T21:47:00.000+08:00

okay so i removed all the previous 3 posts. which practically leaves this blog as an empty shell. what with all the things happening over the last 2 roller coaster mths, the penchant for blogging is back.

when i mean roller coaster, i really mean roller coaster. a roller coaster with no end in sight. the worst is probably yet to come anyway.

oh well, at least i got 2 ppl to talk to now. really have them to thank, i guess :)

adopted from wiki:
Escapism is mental diversion by means of entertainment or recreation, as an "escape" from the perceived unpleasant aspects of daily stress. It can also be used as a term to define the actions people take to try to help relieve feelings of depression or general sadness.

okay, escapism ends tmr, at 2359. though it hasn't worked very well in its objectives. :(

2009-01-08T23:33:00.000+08:00

happy new year! 8 days late. as they always say, better late than never!

the holidays are getting abit of a chore, because of the extra week they put in the first week of january. if you ask me, i rather have school start on the 2nd. minus the pe lessons and co pracs. gosh. co pracs are getting more of a chore too. .__.

you know your holidays are wasted when you play minesweeper while waiting to sound a horn on a facebook game to start a hunt for mice every 15 mins.

singapore under attack

2008-11-30T22:04:00.000+08:00

this is the phone i'm looking at. nice right! it's touch screen, has WIFI, and is actually a pocket PC, and most importantly, i going to get it!

now that i'm on the brink of making history with my first ever touchscreen phone, i'm already making plans for more of such similar milestones. after this phone, i'm going to get myself a touch screen computer monitor, touch screen laptop, touch screen television, touch screen remote controllers, touch screen toilet bowls, etc etc.

speaking of toilet bowls, i was a victim of a biological terrorist attack. not once, but actually twice. i was on the train yesterday from city hall to pasir ris. shortly after the journey commenced, a waft of human manufactured methane floated over. YUCK. it happened again somewhere around paya lebar.

i can assure you it is never a nice situation to be breathing in those things while in a train full of passengers and hardly any fresh air-con-ed air.

casulties includes me, a cockcroach and a teletubby.

the cockroach is the prime suspect in being the suicide bomber. he will be interrogated tmr in the VJCO music room.

2008-11-25T21:31:00.000+08:00

fresh beginning.

hello. =D

okay this is my first post at this new page. haha. i'm trying to be more serious in my posts but it's not easy cuz it's easy to go overboard and there's the danger of certain ppl poking their oily noses in my posts.

maths remedial today was more of a joke than a lesson.

i want to talk to someone. but the right person isn't here. i will have to wait another month then.

yeah hate to start like this, but things are this way now.

bye.

back to CO, orientation 09 and life without you.